My heart is a paraplegic, according to doctors
it has been fractured in several areas, functionality
of its beats are from the waist down.
It only pulses in a downward direction,
everything else is numb, dead, unmovable,
even if I dance my heart simply whispers defeat.
I remember when the beats were symphonic,
a musical rhythm that counteracted my steps,
pulsations that moved as intimately as sex, especially
if it’s done right, thump-da-de-thumps that I could
actually feel without placing my hand over my chest,
my left breast is left empty, languidly hanging in an area
without warmth. I try watching porn to stimulate
rhythmic sequences, not even the girl on girl action
can quake a beat. I wake up breathless in my restless
attempts to stay alive in my sleep, not knowing when
my heart will give out its last beat.