A Cauterizing Fantasy

I was besieged by dream late last night,
but it was blessed too, the perspectives
I had never truly envisioned cauterizing
the ache that had plagued me so this year.
A hallucinogen of questions had once
whirled between my molecules, but freedom
glistened now upon my irises, a taste
I had not gorged upon in tremendous
longevity. I was conversing with a stranger;
whose blonde hair resembled bars
of golden brick, while his crooked teeth
appeared unusual upon a man
of such first world magnificence. His voice
bore the bluntness of an unkempt axe,
a violence willing to spew itself upon thee
the moment anything went amiss.
So here I was, for reasons yet to be revealed,
attempting to postulate the unconvincing truth,
that feelings of a romantic nature
for his succulent paramour, had not sprouted
within my chest. Until she appeared beside me,
I had little idea who it was I aimed to defend
myself agaisnt, knowing only that the truth
did not fall upon my tongue. Yes, I wanted
this young vixen, like I want to breathe
the freshness of the oxygen each day,
however I had little knowledge of her intent
until she whispered it into my ear;
‘let’s have sex’. He hardly would have heard
her words, but would have certainly taken note
of my spontaneous jump, and as she sat down
with him, and ran her fingers through his hair,
I knew no amount of denial would push
her words of rooted affect out from the bounds
of my head. Once awakened from my slumber,
I had to surrender myself to a moment
of contemplation, wondering if the words
said within this obscure fantasy were indeed
from the lips of my wishful beloved,
or just the insane prattle of a young man
wishing for more than his friend
would ever surely wish to give.

A reading of the poem can be found at the following link: http://youtu.be/FVPKC4n6QiA

This above poem is actually based upon a dream I experienced last Friday night, I do believe. It is true that I have had feelings for the woman that was in the dream itself for quite a long period of time, and it’s ironic, or perhaps amazing, that the mind is able to sort through all of the complicated emotions whilst the body is in an unconscious state, and produce an unprejudiced and honest perspective that cuts through everything else to deliver the honest truth. I however am still digging through the layers of the dream to understand how truthful its perspectives really were. Perhaps I should open this up to the readership: if you have a dream that reveals a truth you have been denying for so long, should it be taken as a sign to make a move, or is it simply the lunacy of a mind wrapped in sleepy pastures?

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3 thoughts on “A Cauterizing Fantasy

  1. I think it depends. I mean, I’m sure you knew before the dream that you had these feelings, you probably just confirmed it by letting the subconscious take the wheel. I think the dream is a sign, but a sign for something you already knew anyway.

    I think what you should really explore is what has stopped you thus far. Because, there’s some obstacle.

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